A new beginning...

Today i am entering a new phase of my life. Finally over with 4.5 months of shear hard work which i think finally paid off. However, i must say i will always cherish the past 4.5 months as i believe it was the most important period in my life. A lot happened, both professionally and personally. But at the end i am glad that all turned out well.

One thing i will always remember is that i made lots of good friends during this period. I generally take a lot of time to make someone my good friend but this time it just took 2 or at most 3 days. I realise that a lot has changed now, both within me and outside me. Now i find it easy to communicate with people, to make new friends. People from different states, spoke different languages, got to learn a lot from them. But this was also not permanent as most of my new friends are leaving this place and going to respective allocated places. I got my home town and i m still not clear that i should consider myself lucky or unlucky.

This time i really wanted to leave home and explore new places. Mentally i was very much prepared for that. But fate had something else for me as it wanted me to stay at home with my family. I wonder what have i been doing since 22 years. But all said and done, family members are very very happy and that is what makes me feel satisfied.

Now coming back to my friends, i would just say that i will definitely miss them. It is not easy to see people coming into your life and then leaving all of a sudden as if they were destined to leave. Nothing here is permanent. The only change that happened in my life is that i will sit on the 2nd floor now as opposed to the ground floor of my office building.

Anyways it is not as bad as it might sound. Living at home opens up a whole new set of opportunities for me to exploit. It feels nice to work on what you actually like and want to work on. Whatever i learnt, i really liked it and i hope i will be able to use it successfully. Its a new beginning for me, a new life with new people but one thing remains the same, my hometown.

What lies between our past and future....???

The time i am writting this blog is my present and the time u r reading this blog is ur present....but do v really care about present??? Are we really concerned about it??I will say dat dere r very few ppl u ll find who live their present to their best...Rest the majority are those who r so much intruded by their past n future worries that they rarely get time to live their present...The result being nothing at all...

The greatest gift given to us by god is our mind. We use it to think, to make decisions,
to visualise things, to analyse different prospectives etc. But is this mind really in our control??
Can u manipulate ur mind the way u want it?? The answer again lies within yourself. Sometimes we know that what we are doing should not be done at this point of time. Its ur mind which tells u dat u shouldnt do this. But ur heart makes u do things u r never suppossed to do ideally... The force of heart is so strong that it overshadows ur mind and as a result u do things without giving them a second thought. But the crux again lies in the fact that this mind is not under our control. One moment it starts thinking about something the other moment about something else. It becomes really difficult to program ur mind such that it is still at one place n not thinking anything. The moment u r able to do that u ll feel that u all of a sudden have an edge over so many ppl around u.

There is one big conflict going on between mind and heart. U always know what needs to
be done to be successful, but only few are able to do that. Now this conflict arises if u think too
much. Thinking before doing anything may sound good but too much thought given may even prevent u from reaching a conclusion to do something. It may actually delineate ur ability to take decisions which require on the spot execution. So what should v do? Should v depend on our instincts to make all the decisions in life? This actually depends. But still i feel dat ppl who take decisions based on der instincts prove to be much more successful than those who spend loads of time thinking before doing anything. A gutsy approach to a problem may actually solve ur problems in a fraction of a second.

Ppl who actually make decisions based on der instincts are d ones who prefer stickin to present only rather dan struggling in their past and worrying abt der future. I also feel sometimes dat the best in a person comes when he s relaxed i.e not thinking about anything, fully calm and composed.

Life s just like d game of cricket, you dont know whats d next ball gonna be. V play cricket just on d basis of our instincts. Predetermined shots in crickets dont actually work. Similarly v dont know whats d next ball life s gonna ball at us. So why nt play life thru our instincts only, more spontaneously, thinking nt abt past, worrying nt abt future and just enjoying n making ur present d best. Is this possible? I ll say it is possible but again u have to have control on ur mind.

My Dadaji... the man of principles......

I always wanted to write something, somewhere about my dadaji.... but was looking for the right moment and the right time... It was yesterday when v were in our home town pinjore and he asked me to take him to his old friend's place in pinjore. As is always d case, noone can ever deny him anything, thats d respect every1 has for him, so i took him to his frnds home. His friend was an ex-principle of d only govt. school in pinjore. Initially i thought "What will i do there??Main to bor ho jaunga"...

But as the two started their conversation, i was amazed to observe that it was the most interesting convo i ever came accross

" two old men discussing their history and their past".

The convo started from how the mentality of ppl is changing now-a-days i.e ppl are becoming more n more money minded n ignoring their relationships n love and continued further. My dadaji came from pakistan in 1947 during partition and visited many places to finally settle in Pinjore. He came here with his chachaji n both of them started selling clothes here. In 1951, they bought a small shop here n customers started pouring in. In the meanwhile my dadaji shifted to dehradun for sum reason unknown to me. He again opened a cloth shop der n did great business. He had 40-50 frnds der, all of them were businessmen n all had one hell of a time. They wore d best of clothes available at dat time with gr8 looking ties, tie bows n mufflers dig under their shirt cowllers.

After spending some 8-10 yrs in dehradun, his chachaji came to him n asked him to come back to pinjore as some "jyotshi" had told him that he will die soon. He was amazed to hear that. He said "i am having a gr8 time here, i am doing good business , i have so many frnds here". But aftr all said n done, he left everything in dehradun n came back to pinjore. Dey both again started cloth business der n he excelled again. Ppl used to come from as fas as 100 kms to buy clothes frm him. Both of dem used to hire donkeys for "12 aane" to carry cloth n sell them to a place called "Mallah" every 1st day of d month since ppl used to get theis salaries on 1st. He got wealthier day be day. His chachaji used to go to patiala to buy clothes in d wholesale Patiala market. One day when his chachaji went to patiala for usual business n he dint come back because of a heart attack. The "bhavishya vani" of dat jyotishi came true dis time.He was 45 yrs old den, was very healthy n a huge bodied man. News of his demise came to my dadaji via a phone call in pinjore frm patiala. Then their used to be only 1 phone n dat too in police station. D whole town mourned over his death n so did my dadaji.

But life goes on, my dadaji alone continued their business of selling clothes which kept on growing like anything. Slowly n slowly cloth business reached saturation in pinjore. So many new shopkeepers came up n compitition became stiff. Pinjore had 400 ppl in 1947 which grew to 10,000 n above in 20-30 yrs.

Now coming back to their conversation, both of dem started remembering their old frndship days, when dey used to run 10 kms everday, have a cup of tea n come back running. Both of them were gr8 urdu shayars. My dadaji has some 10-12 copies in which he has written so many urdu shers which are ofcourse his own creation. He reads n recalls them evryday while sitting in his sort of weard chair in our house. Everyday he wakes up, dresses like hell even today and spends hours reading his urdu newpaper.

He is above eighty but he s cool like a cucumber. Once a frnd of mine(girl) came to my place to meet me. I generally hesitate from letting gals inside my house because i donno hw dad ll react. Dat day she came in sat for arnd half n hour n den went away. I was afreaid ki dadaji ne papa ko bta dia to kya hoga.. But he asked me to treat her well, he himself had a nice chat wid her n asked her to come again. I was happy :D...

Anyhow i wish to god to give him a long long life. I hv grown up in his shadow n want dat shadow to remain forever. God bless u dadaji...... U rock.... :-)

What is life????

What is life..... ???
This question still remains unanswered in my mind. Its been almost 22 yrs n m still trying to figure it out. Some people say "Love is Life", there was a time when i used to adhere to this saying. But is this really true. I would say that again it is questionable. If love is life then why do people get hurt when they are in love, n when they go apart from their love. So does this mean that making yourself hurt is life. Again a questionable statement.

Life means different thing to different people. For some, staying with their loved one is all what life is. Now who is the loved one here.. The one whom u love or the one who loves u???
Again i dont know. Staying with d one u love gives u a lot of pain if he or she doesnt feel the same, and if u choose to stay with the one who loves u then u end up hurting him or her so many times. So the element of hurt is always there.

Nothing is perfect in life. Relationships start, v feel that its a new begining now, this s wat v wanted and then after some time v end and wonder that if this was suppossed to end then y at all it started. If someone is der to leave u then y d hell he/she ever came in ur life.
We tend to behave how v feel at present. We do such things thinking that v r right but actually v neglect everything else. All the things that happened in past v neglect thinking that at this moment this s the right thing to do and some of us do end up repenting.

Some wise man once said "History repeats itself", now this is one statement i agree to. When v grow up there r some things which our kindergardern teacher taught us. One such thing i remember is "Tit for Tat". N u realise this or not, this s so much d truth. U do something to someone n forget, in some other way it happens to u also. It does if u actually analyse. People come and go, some cry, some dont. Human nature is one thing which u cant analyse. U never know how an individual is going to behave the next moment. So who can u trust in this world???
Is there anyone .... who ll always come for u... help u... save u... protect u... if at all there is some one it is god.... because in god i trust.... for everything else u never know...

first day at work !!!

Today was my first day at work. I expected this to be an exciting day and it proved more hectic than exciting. The office was marvelous. The architechture was simply mind blowing. I never saw such huge architechture in my life and everything was so beautiful. It was raining cats and dogs outside so i parked my car outside the company gate.

V got our documents checked and were given a warm welcome from the team. In about half an hour v were given instructions to park our vehicles inside the company premises, so my maruti also got a glimpse of the beautiful campus. As soon as i went inside after parking my car v were given orders to go to our respective rooms. We sat in a room which was for around 80 ppl and i must mention that those chairs were not at all comfortable. My back started paining as soon as i lay on them.

Tha HR came and started with the induction program which continued for 2 hours. We were given a coffee break which everyone liked :). It was nice to have a walk inside the office premises which were simply awesome. They had used the best of tiles and marbles on the floor and the wood was simply shining as if it was asking us to use it. That was again continued by a long induction session.

Then came the lunch break. Everyone one was so excited to see the huge food court which cud serve more than 1400 ppl at a time, again a marvelous, huge and magnificient structure and to my delight they served both veg and non-veg. The food was good and then v sat for long hours in the classroom doing nothing at all.

Then came the worst part of the first day, form filling. Then made us fill so so so many forms that anyone can imagine. It lasted for 2 n a half hours and v were all exhausted after that session.

This was the first day at work. I wouldnt say the it was very nice and exciting but ya it was definately a gr8 expirience for an average fresher like me. It felt great to return home after work :). It provided a sense of achievement and self belief . Everynone at home asked about how it went except my bro( he is never interested in anything except his cell phone;)). Neverthless a good expirience, a phase which every engineer waits for in his life. But the days ahead are gonna be very tough, thats for sure.....Ya i also forgot to mention the HR head :D. She was the sweetest person i met there. A very beautiful and soft spoken lady, there was seriously some magic in her. Must say her hubby is a luck dude... :-)

The day she went away!!!

Today is sunday... well its not any ordinary day for me. Today was the day when she left. I was there to see her off. Early morning when my cell rang and all of a sudden i remembered "ya i have to see her off today

". Today was the day when she had to leave chandigarh to start a new life at a new place. So as soon as i got up i took my bike and went straight to her place. I met her finally, just 10 mins and she was about to leave. I waved her gudbye and came straight back home.

But as i said it was no ordinary day today, my home was nt the same too. It felt so empty from inside, so lonely that i coudnt explain. Whole day i kept on wondering that was this all, was all the fun had to end all of a sudden ?? Life came to a halt today. I just kept on wondering if i was only made to see off my dear ones with each passing day. She also had to leave and i cudnt stop her. I just kept on looking in her helpless eyes and in 5 seconds they also vanished. Those big black eyes said so many things in just 10seconds. I saw love for my self but i saw a lot of pain in them too.

Today v dint chat for long hours. I just kept on looking at my cell phone waiting for that one special msg of hers that wud make my day. But it turned out to be a long long wait and nothing else. I dint know wat to do next. What d hell will i do without her... where were those lovely hands which were always der to hold me, to protect me, to support me. Where were those deep dark eyes which used to spell magic on me. Was this the end of a period or a start of a new era?? All these questions kept on boucing all over my mind the whole day.

Meanwhile the wait was finally over and my phone rang and there i got delighted once again hearing that magicall voice of hers. She told me that she had reached safely and it was a sight of relief for me. V coudnt talk for long but that one call made my day. It made me believe that she actually is just one call away. She s near me and ll always be beside me all the time. I realised that some things are bound to happen and everything that happens s for gud only.

After all said and done i wud still say that today was no ordinary day because today was the day she went away....!!!

A journey through Biotechnology!!!

I just passed out after completing my B.E in biotechnology from U.I.E.T , Panjab University, Chandigarh. Well i wont say that it is a very good college but ya it is an above average insti. Joining an engg course in biotech was an event in itself because i just joined it because of the great hype surrounding it and because of top rankers opting for this branch. So in my case it was more of a bhed chal.

The first year was great fun in PU. I met so many new ppl, so many good friends and on the back of my mind i was happy thinking that i have a safe career and a bright future ahead(since i took biotech).

The first year went away happily since there was no biotech involved yet. Then came the second yr when d biotech hoopla arrived and i was surprised because i dint know 'a' of bio. My grades started slipping all of a sudden. Then i thought of working hard but those practicals, i hated all of them. The point was i was nt willing to work in that biotech lab which was the most hated corner of my college.

2nd yr passed by and i saw my grades falling like a pack of cards (because of those practicals). 2nd yr was over n i entered my 3rd yr. This was the time to decide about the future. What to do and where to go ahead.
My seniors from biotech were not able to find goods jobs for themselves so the ambience was a little tensed. I joined mba coaching and i really liked that stuff, thought that ya this s where i belong.

Meanwhile coaching started and 4th yr also came and it brought with it placements to our college. Infy was the first company and it surprised everyone by taking 109 out of 180 ppl who sat for the test. Only 8 from biotech got selected and i got lucky this time. That was virtually the end of placements for BT guys.

While evry1 had 2 jobs some even had 3, v BT guys dint even have 1, so i was actually quite content with wat i got. The year also finished and i decided to go for my job and dropped the idea of mba. Now i am sitting at my place and a month s left to go to mysore, friends have gone to their respective places, it is a very awkward situation actually. Everyone curses biotech because dey dint get wat dey deserved but i still believe that a day will come when biotechis will rule the world and i wud like to see that day in my lifetime so that i may feel proud some day...